Wednesday, December 30, 2009

the last day of 2009

Re-cap of 2009

Jan : Join AMAL as trainee engineer

Feb : Appointed as scheduler for turnaround 09

Mar : Tonning myself for graduation

Apr : Graduation class of 2008 Mechanical Engineering

May : Step into train 8 for the 1st tym

June : Had my Gawai with Bi , shopping spree in Singapore

July : Train 6 here i came, celebrate my bday with Onni'es at Shabu Kun

Aug : abroad Train 1 and while on board , i lost my Onni forever

Sep : 3rd year anni, Last train , # 5 ... bck to main office

Oct : change role to QS ... luckily had a break , can do whitening session 8 office ... yes no more sunburn

Nov : AMAL anual dinner

Dec : Christmas with family and friends ... tho i was sick that nite

Event to anticipate :

1. Rojak & ais kacang with lovely ladies 8 kidurong
2. viewing the "blue moon" tonight
3. Moon eclips tomorrow morning
4. House cleaning ... a new year with a clean house
5. its time to vacuum Savvy n polish it

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Yes ~!!! Here i Came Kuching

By 9pm i'll be in my beloved hometown ... i dont know how to explain to my colleages that actually, its not kampung im heading to but A BIG CITY ... every time i said im going back to kuching, the FAMOUS question pop out "balik kampung ka?" ... well thats our modern world , a home in the city, no more so-called balik kampung tradition anymore ... instead of speed boat, believe me half of us are using Air Asia to travel ... there goes the money ;p

ah 5min to 430pm ... should be heading home ain't i? To all my beloved friends and cousins and families, im wishing you all a very blessed Christmas, may the Birth of Baby Jesus gives us the old faith, hope and love to be re-new once more, may it be strengthen our faith , increase our hope and deepen our love. Merry Christmas \(^O^)/

Monday, December 21, 2009

A day full of emotional

I thought i would be fine when i went to Late eika Simon Funeral Mass last saturday ...

I thought im strong to face it once again ...

I thought .......

The moment i step into d church, my heart crushed into pieces ... "Heavenly Father, give me the strenght to go through this once again ... lend me ur strong arm to walk side by side with us" i prayed

My body was trembling , my hands shake so badly that i thought i might be fainting in d church , i was cold as a fish ... people said " no one can understand the sorrow " ... but i truely do, it might be different than losing a sibling compare to ur better half.

When Onni Yaq leaves us, my world was blur and empty, i remember the morning before i knew her death, i wake up feeling something was missing, and the whole morning i been searching for the missing parcel ...

Upon hearing the news, i was numb ... 5 seconds feels like a nano second, surreal are the feelings , and yes it still does ... im thankful grandma was there to lend me her shoulder, must be painful for her to hear me crying so badly ... leaving my hectic work, Project Manager and my team mate without further explaination , was the most selfish act i ever done.

Onni, im so lost without you ... when you say " till we meet again " at the bus terminal ... never in my mind it was our last good bye ...

Remember our fav phase " kita kan kaya " ?? the Manuk island Sep 09 trip, Korea 2010 trip, Bali Dec 09 trip and our never ending " what if world "?? the weekend jalan2 cari makan event, the RM80 shabu2 , beach outing, walking / driving in the heavy rain just for your wallet and yes there goes my cartoon movie ticket ... i think both of them "kahwin lari" that rainy night.

Onni, you are my missing parcel.